The right fit

For the longest time I believed that I didn't fit in... anywhere. My clothes didn't fit, because I was overweight and tall. My glasses didn't fit because my nose was too narrow. I didn't fit in socially because I was quiet, reserved, shy. I longed to fit in, for such a long time. But even when I tried to fit in, I stood out. I wasn't being true to who I was, probably because I really didn't know myself and what I did know of myself was scary and unpredictable. Fast forward to now. I still don't fit in everywhere. Guess what, that's okay. Actually, that is more than okay... It's great. Now I don't have to second guess myself, compromise who I am, or live a life of mediocrity. I have found places where I do belong. Friends who challenge me to be the best I can be, accept me for who I am, and celebrate each victory that comes my way. I have found clothes that fit, glasses that fit, and a voice that shares good news, and fights for fairness. In other words, I found me.

Passing judgement

Judgement. The older I get the more I hate that word. I get passed by, judged, and dismissed all the time. I have become accustomed to it. Funny thing though, it doesn't stop me from reaching for my life goals. Some people have looked at me and have seen a lazy/fat person. Others, an old person, a tall person, or a person with a disability. The funny thing is, that I am those things, except lazy. None of these things stops me though. I still get up everyday, feed myself, take care of myself, go after my dreams and goals one step at a time, and love the people around me. It is unfair when people allow their judgements to keep me out of being a part of community though. But I'm not the one missing out... they are. They are missing out on knowing me better, and that is what's saddest of all. I have lots to offer, just like the next person. Just like you do. Whether or not people accept others, that is up to them. I just wish that judging others didn't have to be a part of it.

Welcome, 2019.

Christmas and New Years came and went, and here I am, plugging through life as best I can. With every possibility to a new adventure, I become more and more aware of reality. I want to be the best I can be, but I also want to have the most success too. When I make a list of things to do, to keep searching for a better life, I tend to pick too many things to do. Then, I eventually give up because I get so overwhelmed with all the little and numerous steps needed to succeed. So, this year, I am focusing on one thing this year. Health. With confidence, I will choose what small steps I can make in one area. Simplifying this aspect of my life will allow me to grow in one area after another. To help me, I am going tomorrow to get a journal to write out my plan, stay organized, and focused, and begin the year on a good note. Too much of all these small steps in life get way to big in my life. I have found that when I simplify what needs to be done, I am a lot more successful.